Well here it is 15 min till I get off of work. The calls are few and far between. I guess you get used to it though. THere are atleast a few people to talk to. The day has been a slow one. Not much going on. I guess it is on these days that the mind wanders the most. I had an interesting dream this morning. I was sitting there at work and I got a call from the receptionist's desk saying that there was a visitor there for me. So I went down the stairs and standing there was my father. I was in shock to see him. He told me that he was not dead and that like Elvis (Ok so it's a dream) He had faked his death. He told me that he had waited too long to let me know that he loved me and that he was sorry that he had left me like he did. He told me that he was a man that had so many problems and that he did not know how to handle them. He told me that he had been watching me over the years and though I did not know it he was quite proud of me. The conversation went on and I got to know my father. He was a great man and we sat and cried together. it was quite a dream and I woke up with tears in my eyes. I think that in some ways this was sort of the closure that I needed. I know that my father is watching me from heaven. I know that he loved me and that in his own way he was not able to show it to me . I think that in this dream that I had the sense that my father is looking out for me is really there. He is in my heart and I truely do love him though he was never there for me when he was alive. There is a part of him in me and I will cherish him for the life that he gave me. I guess I am done for now. My thoughts are on the screen and they are known. Now I know what it feels like to have a sense of calmness and closure with my father.....